I have no job & can’t get one. Have no friends in real life, just on the internet, & I can’t get any. I have dreams.. can I follow them while I’m in the middle of Missouri with no money? No.. so what do I want to do?
I would love to just go to a convention, go to a rave, & dress up once in my life. I want to be able to have as many tattoos as I possibly can. That takes money though.. I want to be something big. I would love to be a model… wear wigs, show my tattoos, & wear sexy clothes that make me feel amazing & confident…can I do that? I wish… I WISH!
I want to have a life without struggling to pay bills. I want to make money without throwing my life away to make it. I want to go to LA.. Hollywood.. freaking live by the beach..
I want to make art. Amazing things. I want to eat & make foods all over the world. Go to Japan, Italy, maybe Paris? I don’t even know!
I want to be myself & look the way I want. Meet & make friends everywhere in real life! Make money without throwing everything away.
but it’s like I just spilled everything on here like this for no reason.. none of this is going to happen.. I’m stuck in the middle of Missouri for 20 years because that’s where my husbands work is.. I’m going to waste 20 golden years of my life here without being able to do any of those things..